nonsensical things i happen to say
Sorry, Mom, but I’ve got two new tattoos in the works. One is a “fix” for one of my first tattoos that needs some serious help. The other is an addition, which will make 5 total.
In order to get my tattoos, though, I am giving myself a goal to reach for each tat. One involves money earned for work completed and one involves losing 20 pounds. I’m not sure which I want to accomplish first!!!
I will keep you posted on progress made and post pics once I get the first one!
I’m feeling under the weather today, so I’ve got plenty of time to lay around and think about lots of things. For some reason, I’ve been dwelling on the thought that things just aren’t quite “right” in my life. It’s such a weird thought to have since I’m at a point in my life where I am incredibly excited about the future and what God is doing around and in me. But, still…this “not so right” feeling creeps up.
I think a lot of it stems from the fact that I have strayed away from discipline. I WANT to read my Bible more, I WANT to get involved in more community service, I WANT to learn new skills, I WANT to get out of debt, I WANT to love well…I WANT, I WANT, I WANT. The obvious missing link is the actual DOING. I can WANT all I want, but until I get off my keyster and DO, nothing is going to change.
So, I ask the question, “Where do I begin?” And then I immediately answer myself, “Does it matter? Just BEGIN.”
My good friend, Nic, forwarded this to me and it’s such a great word that I felt the need to share it. It’s such a timely message for my heart to hear right now.
“Human relationships easily become possessive. Our hearts so much desire to be loved that we are inclined to cling to the person who offers us love, affection, friendship, care, or support. Once we have seen or felt a hint of love, we want more of it. That explains why lovers so often bicker with each other. Lovers’ quarrels are quarrels between people who want more of each other than they are able or willing to give.
It is very hard for love not to become possessive because our hearts look for perfect love and no human being is capable of that. Only God can offer perfect love. Therefore, the art of loving includes the art of giving one another space. When we invade one another’s space and do not allow the other to be his or her own free person, we cause great suffering in our relationships. But when we give another space to move and share our gifts, true intimacy becomes possible.”
I have a hard time finding the balance, but truly want to give those I love and cherish the space to be who they are, use their God-given gifts to serve others and to grow in their faith. All I can say is, “God, help me.”
